Friends are the best tonic
I'm just lying in bed and my head is buzzing with all sorts of things. I had a terrible night last night but had quite a good day today with only a couple of minor glitches.
I ate breakfast with my gorgeous grandparents then went for a cuppa with my mum before setting off down to RAF Cranwell for an appointment. I was really happy because I was spending the afternoon with my dearest friend Lozzie who I haven't seen since I moved up north. It was bloody brilliant to see her but also made me realise just how very much I miss her, Meesh & Bertie. It was great to see the pooches playing well today although they did look pretty shabby afterwards!!
I also had chance to catch up with Mrs McManchester and then off to have a brief catch up with Dawn & Luke where I stayed for the evening. Friends are so very much the best tonic anyone can have. Friends who accept you warts and all are priceless and I feel blessed to have them in my life. I absolutely felt amazing after seeing everyone rather than being isolated in my prison. It is such a long time since I felt like this but it was also a bitter sweet moment. Being back on camp was truly hard because I never wanted to leave the RAF and here I am, back at my previous unit.
I have my first resettlement appointment tomorrow and then I guess things start moving closer towards a 'life' in civi street. I just want to be sorted now so I can settle into what is next for me. I'm hoping to use my experience and turn it into something positive for others. I have lost people out of my life through lack of understanding about PTSD, and also lost my career also. I don't want that to happen to other people so if my negative experience, which I am still living in, can help others then it is almost worth it. I have been booked to deliver 2 talks both at RAF Warrington & in Budapest, and I'm hoping to be invited for more.
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PTSD & mental illness in general needs to be talked about and I'm not afraid to do so.